This is how i feel right now. I'm kind of in this place where I'm not ready for what is about to happen. As I right this, I have 1 benadryl, 5 sugar packets, 2 Krispy Kremes, an Iced Carmel Maccihoto with an extra shot of espresso, and a burrito, running through my system so excuse me for anything in this blog. I am hyper but I feel like a drug addict. kind of like i got the high but I'm starting to fall. And my arms hurt really bad because of my sunburn. i don't know, i am somewhat unmotivated at the moment in terms of school but who isn't after spring break? I'm going to Mexico this weekend. I could not be any more excited or could I?
God has really been showing me a lot lately. For me, God knows i learn best through repetition in a short period of time. And lately, he is teaching me to see people through his eyes, or as I like to say, the holes in his hands. We watched the passion the other night and at the end, when christ is raised from the dead, there are these gaping holes in his hands. That might not be realistic but as I had been discussing the idea of seeing people through God's eyes, I envisioned this. The nails in his hands to me represent the sacrifice he made in order to make us clean and in order to see us in Him. It represents love beyond understanding for beings that have utterly rejected you. And so to me, I want to see people through the holes in His hands. Through the representation of his sacrifice because he died for them. And He loves them and wants me to love them.
People have hurt me, but he still loves them. And as we were discussing this morning in the coffee shop, no matter who or what seems to be against us, God is fighting our battles.
2 Chronicles 20:12
O our God, will you not judge them? For we have no power to face this vast army that is attacking us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are upon you.
So in one corner we have Maddie and Me, a girl that I love so much! If I could have a little sister, I would have loved to have her. Maybe...I love her! Ms Maddie and I, we're a lot alike. She has grown up around boys and has brothers and she wants to be like me. you know, it's fun when you have a little girl who likes you and wants to be with you. I really got to see what it is like for her to live down there. when she grabbed the back of my pants and held my hand really tight, I just loved it. Having a little sister and someone to look up to you like that is pretty much the most amazing thing in the world. We got to hang out all Sunday so that Kathy could do what she needed to do. And it was fun, no worries and I got to help Kathy, so it was the best of both worlds. Plus we got to play amazing games and hang out at their house for a while. it was great. Really great. it is really cute. I love them so much!
Then we come to the love of my life! JONAH! Yeah, this is up there as one of the cutest pictures of all time. Another for me to smile at every night. He is pretty much the cutest thing I have ever seen. He makes my heart smile. He is the little brother that I never had.
