Do you ever just want something for yourself? Just for you? Don't get me wrong, I have amazing friends but they are not always the best at doing this. Some of them have to have everything and everyone, and so it is hard for me because when I want something, they have to have it too. And that is really difficult. But a lot of the things that they pride themselves in having are not things that I want. For most of my girlfriends, it is most important to have a boyfriend or guy to like them. They say that they have other goals, but then I question why they always have to like someone and they go from one guy to the next. I think a lot of the relationships are not relationships that I want becuase most of the relationships stemmed out of breakups and then someone moving on, so the other person had to move on. I don't think that is a good way for relationships to start. But maybe that is just me. I do like guys, and I like a guy now, but oh gosh, if that was the center of my world, how insecure and unpurposeful would my life be. And I want purpose.