all that i can say

Project was AMAZING!! And so was the Fold with their awesome bass player. And Chasing Victory. Can you say double amazing? I mean Andrew Schwab made the concert, but it was awesome all around. there was nothing that happened that could down my night. If you were there you understand.

Well, let's think, the highlight of my night was falling in the mosh pit that one time. now you may think that to be weird. and it kind of is. But you must understand the full context. It was during Project and we were moshing, and I fell and all of the sudden I hear someone yell my name and before i can figure out what is going on, i am back on my feet again. So I turn around, and Nialls is all "Are you okay?" Man do I have awesome guy friends. Its like having so many awesome older brothers. they even tell me its like the obligation to the younger sister. i mean, some girls would be defiant and be like "you can't rule me." But hey, I know they aren't being mean or trying to make me feel like a little kid. They know me well enough to know I am not stupid and that I won't go into a mosh pit that i can't handle. I mean Ray pushed me into the mosh pit where i got my throat elbowed, and my jaw hit by the guy who looks like he is from showbread. but it was all good. I had the worst headache and had to sit out for two songs and lay on the ground. But I got back up. No need to fear. But it was kind of a rule that we set out that I wouldn't go into the mosh pit unless Josh, Ray or Nialls was in it. That means that i had more of a possibility of dying, but look even Nialls could pick me up. I don't know, I appreciated it.

So then I went dress shopping this morning, trust me this connects to the Project concert. And my mom pressed part of my sternum and I pretty much screamed becuase i got elbowed in the sternum and then in the back and then my nose still hurts, and i got punched in the forehead. it was a very successful night and i don't regret one decision that i made.

Especially the decision i made to be free. So shealeen, i am pretty much just talking to you because you are the only person who reads any of this stuff. Last night was the first night in a long time that I felt free. I was so excited for this concert. I knew that Josh and Kirsi and nialls and shealeen were going to be there and that was pretty much it. I didn't know everyone was coming. So i thought hey, a night without drama, this should be awesome. but without a doubt, some drama could have occured. But you know what I figured out, drama only happens when you let it. it is a pure decision on how you look at everything. There was a lot like __________ and then ___________ and _______________ but you know what, when you serve God and he is the sole purpose you see that a lot no longer matters.

the ensuing chaos that the news of this past week brought showed me a lot. It made me forget about the mistakes that were made. You just see that when something is threatened to be taken away from you, you quickly forget any grudges you were holding. As we have spoken, you've heard me complain many a time, but that no longer matters. We do not serve a dead God! And no matter what happens at Calvary, God is the same God and we CAN trust in that.

This blog is an outpouring of emotion, so I am really sorry that it is jumpy. But in reference to the whole thing going on at Calvary, God really showed me something, not just about that, but as well about my life. When my pain is for God's glory, "lord have your way in me." i want to be a missionary, and God is showing me so much about that. Let the Nations be Glad by John Piper is continually discussing that missions and everything in our lives are for the glory of God. Even our pain, so its my prayer that god would have his way in me. And that he would have his way and that these events, no matter anyone's opinion on them, would be to God's glory and that he would be magnified in the lives of those who are watching us. that they would see that God is still holding us.

It is my personal opinion that the decisions two families made were decisions that they had prayed about and are decisions that are godly and right for their family. There are not many people that I respect more than the Churches or the Nelsons as they have exhibited the love of Christ for our congregation. And so its my prayer that they would have wisdom in the decisions that they will continue to make and they will be strengthened even through the whole gossip wheels that run within our congregation. I don't want to know the "story." i respect the leaders of both families enough to know they are men after God's heart and they are making the right decision.

So that is all i am going to say about that. and you will get to hear about more of the Project concert later.

Until later-
Sarah