I no longer matter, but that is okay

I've done all I can do. If he doesn't want to be friends, can I force that? What is God possibly trying to teach me through this? I've hashed it out with God and I know what I would need, I know my desires and what I would want to do with my life. Everything from wanting to serve in foreign missions to loving to snowboard to wanting to be involved in street witnessing to high school students. And I know God will exceed my expectations. He has never failed to show me his goodness. And someday, I will be like Nick and Shaena, and God will provide my "Nick". who knows, maybe I should move to Puerto Rico. that sounds like an exciting plan.