me and my dream come true

God completely gave me the most beautiful revelation. As you may not know, I've been struggling with a guy that I like. but god in his perfection led me to a beautiful revelation. I was listening to the Apathetic EP and specifically OVERthinking, the acoustic version, and it was the first time that the words made complete sense. They said "I was thinking, over thinking, about how far i had let this go, one more guy/girl cliche, I know now you're just in the way, of me and my dream come true."
If you know me, you know that I want to be a medical missionary in any foreign country that God will take me. Even if i live in an area in Paupa New Guinea where it rains 362 days of the year, I love to be in foreign countries. Christ has given me a passion for the bibleless peoples of the world, and I can't deny that. My husband, whoever and wherever he is, must have similar desires. An unquenchable thirst to see God's face and serve, anytime and anywhere. Does that make sense?
Well, I realized about this specific boy that that is not really him. God has completely shown me that maybe he is more comfortable flirting and goofing off than he is when serving. I mean, the kid thinks i shouldn't do hard work, like lifting and pushing. (or at least what he says tells me this) but that is where i love being. I love doing anything and everything that needs to be done. I take great pleasure in finishing a job and serving someone else, that is just part of my personality. And whoever i date or marry must be the same way. he must possess an eager desire to serve any time it is needed and even when it is hard.
And this boy really doesn't seem to be like that. don't get me wrong, he's great and all, but i don't see a servant's heart to the level that i know God wants me to have in whoever I spend a lot of time with. And thinking and worrying about him is in the way of me becoming the servant that God desires for me. I'm letting him get in the way of me and my dream come true. I may have a lot of limitations in hard work becuase i am a girl, but i would prefer for a guy to help me rather than tell me not to do it. Respect that I love doing this stuff, but be a gentleman and help. Does any of this make sense? do you think i'm being to hard on him?