thoughts

What happens now? That I've found what I've been wanting. When I turned away for so long? When I was afraid to admit what I wanted? The tricky thing about life is that there are those who are constantly trying to please people and I don't mean that in a bad way. Because not all of them are "people-pleasers" That is without a doubt fairly confusing but what I mean is this. there are those who are willing to change everything about themselves and there are those who are willing to comprimise what they really want becuase they figure if that person thinks it is cool, it can't be that bad. Never again will I do that. I've never sinned within that, or gone against what I know is godly. I don't comprimise in that way and I never want to. Doubtless, I probably will, but I'm trying my best to allow Christ to burn away what is not of Him in my life. the hardest thing about that is that God lets you know, which is really a blessing not a curse. He picks you up when you are falling on your face and stands you where you are facing the right direction and he starts giving you the first few steps. Just in the past week, God has really taken a parked car like me and completely altered my direction. There have been at least four things that have changed me.

My conversation with Patrick.
My conversation with Neil.
My teacher's comment about my teaching.
My conversation with Sam.

God gives us signs and helps us. that is perfectly amazing. I'm going to try to not make the mistake of doing anything like t his ever again. I know the direction for my life. and I know my Jesus.