For the moments i feel faint...

I'm finally finding that I can't keep waiting,
That perhaps you are ever lost.
That my efforts mean nothing,
You will do what you want even at the cost of my heart.
You will always fail me even though I wish you wouldn't.
And I will always fail you even when it seems I couldn't.
I've tried so hard to be everything to you
As you have been everything to me.
But now I dethrone you,
and strip you of your power.

Did you think me childish,
not soon to understand your ways?
You are a human and your cunning tricks have captivated me too long.
I have given you power and you have used it wrongly,
you have played and fooled with me.
And even if you claim no responsibility, I am sure of your knowledge.
For even your heart is not so hardened,
And I have held on but perhaps now,
I'm realizing why you have stuck around.

Perhaps for her or him,
either way, your motives were untrue.
You could not clearly begin to understand
that you should have influenced me for Him.
And now that you hold no power over me,
You will know by my rebuttal of your attentions,
That I am serious in my convictions.
My heart has been ravaged by many who claim good intentions,
And for some time it may have been true,
But in the end, you did nothing but harm.
And even the good times are not worthy of the pain you have caused.

This is my apology for not being what you wanted.
I'm sorry that I am now fully satisfied
In the breath of life, the savior of my soul.
He will never fail me, and never let go.
Just know that you hold no power,
He has found my heart,
And trust me, He will not let go.