I feel as though I can’t express these word so I spill from my finger tips,
Never letting go of the pen I’ve been writing with.
If I sever my hand I may stop the bleeding,
my heart cant take in what I’ve been feeding.
This anger inside me needs to be let out,
I feel though that it will take more than a shout.
This thought has become more than a sin,
Its become a lust that I wish I had no part in.
This desire for what is wrong, I let build up inside of me for far to long,
This is something that needs to be taken care of,
Forgive me please, I can’t even love.
If you wont leave me now in my place of regret,
I will be forced to leave you and send out for another net.
Something that will grab me, constrict me and hold me,
I don’t want to be set loose for this thing that overcomes me.
Is it wrong that I can’t love you?
Its all in my heart and I cant seem to true.
I’ve been hiding it for all this time,
But now that you finally know my life has no rhyme.
I can’t ever love you, and I don’t even care,
I’ve lost all my conscience and now heart never seems to tear.
Is it wrong that I can’t love you? Is it wrong that I never will?
Did I ever seem to taunt you? Or is it just me with the lust to kill?
These thoughts I try never to entertain,
But every time I try not to I fell a hard pouring rain.
It makes me want something I don’t,
Please just get away and I so I cant even touch you, I promise I wont.
I leave you with this final note,
For this sickness that I have there is only one antidote.
Some one to come inside of your life,
He will change you and take away your strife.
Even though we have this over-compelling discord,
We just need to cry out to our Lord.
He's the only one who can save us now,
Though we thought there was nothing we could do as the oxen pulls the plow.
Is it wrong that don’t love you?
Cause I probably never will.

-Joshua Rickett
(one of the sweetest peole in the world, and one of the greatest writers.)