this is what i want in life

Six weeks from today, I will have been up for 4 or 5 hours playing cards at the compound. Missions has changed my life. Everything about it. The way I view my problems, my posssessions, and mostly God. Nothing so radically alters your life than being with 50 or 75 people for an entire weekend, and not having everything you want, but going out and serving those who are in need, sharing with them the love that Christ has for them. Mexico, and Missions in general, represents so much to me. I rededicated my life at the Weekend 04 but God softened my heart the December before. I was a Christian, meaning I believed that Christ died for me and rose again, but the reality of Christ in my life was a distant thing. He was not the ruler and my personal savior. That mission trip made me turn to God in my desperate times when I was grieving my cousin. As I stood right in the place where he had fallen, the Lifehouse song ran through my mind "And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you." God brought me to a place that I dreaded and cut through my heart, revealing my true need for him.
Likewise, I met one of my best friends while on an OCC Mexico trip. Rachel and I have been friends for two years that weekend. when you are the only two girls in a dormroom full of snoring women, trust me you get really close. Rachel has impacted my life in so many ways, and just makes me smile on a regular basis. And I know that Christ completely worked in that relationship. So this holds our two year anniversery of being friends. And without a doubt, we will celebrate that every December from now on. Happy Birthday to Us!
That weekend, Christ stirred in me a passion that my heart cannot explain. I'll confess that out-of-country missions is all I want. If it was up to me I would do it for the rest of my life. But God holds my future, and that might not be the forward motion that he has in store, but oh how I wish it was. God has taught me that ministry isn't just in the slums. Service is an opportunity that is generally opened every moment of everyday.
Ministry takes place when divine resources meet human needs through loving channels to the glory of God.
-On Being A Servant