jesus, i'm ready to come home

You may view me as a child
But my eyes have seen
And my heart has been through
More than would be qualified for a child.
Acts which no one could prevent
That have molded me.
I may define me as an adult,
But I am not perfectly wise,
My life is not finished
I have not learned all there is to learn.
He may see me as a vessel,
And He has the right idea,
Which He will fill with priceless wisdom,
Time and experience,
Soon we will not know
If I am a child or an adult.

Music blaring loudly,
Emery and Underoath
Lyrics flood my thoughts
The overwhelming feelings of the day
Are put to rest
When I lay in bed
And those words reflect my struggle.
The events I don’t understand
Don’t know how to deal with.
Amidst the present doubt,
I’m still trusting,
Even when my feet fall
From beneath me-
“I know that whatever God does,
It shall be forever.
Nothing can be added to it,
And nothing taken from it.
God does it
That men should fear before Him.”
In this loving promise,
I’ve come to trust.
In his sovereign control,
The perfect plan he has.
His grace and mercy
Abounding and saving me.
“Desperate to brush the lips of grace
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I lied?
Oh sweet angel of mercy
With your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.”
Lyrics reassuring desperately,
It was perfectly planned,
I was appointed from eternity.
“The chains of death are falling,
But my heart still bleeds
It longs for the day”
Each day is one closer,
To eternity,
The world which satisfies
The longings of my heart.

I’ve learned that everything perfects for that day
Each day, a way to survive
Love is the way
Unfailing love that covers.
Forgives and heals the broken heart
My own mistakes made me push away
The love that could be mine.
Trust is the anchor
Belief in One who never fails me.
All else has,
Human nature lacks perfect and true love
But I will have it one day.
Hope is the path
Which we must walk
But it leads into
The arms of love
Into ten thousand charms.
I await the day
I’m ready
I know these days are numbered
I was made for another world
To rest in the arms of love.

"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."-C.S. Lewis