Why do I even keep this blog? It is a day before I leave for Mexico, and already I can't wait. A six hour drive, including all of the times Steve and everyone will get lost plus getting over the border. What will God show me? I am already up to my ears in reading i have to do by the end of the semester, and poems I have to write, and friends I have to talk to. (well not have to, but its like there cna be so many of them, how can I keep track?) Don't get me wrong, I love my friends, or at least those who could be defined as real friends. But I'm getting that eery feeling that I'm being replaced by the ones who I care about most. By the way, if you are a morning person, you should tell me and maybe I will ask you to marry me. Trust me, only Josh and Shealeen will understand that proposal. I promise I won't propose though.
Which leads to another thought. What is up with all of this crazy crap about telling the person that you like that you like them? Its like, one of the "couples" that i look up to most haven't even voiced to each other how they feel (obviously they both know though) and its been a whole year that they have felt that way. And its like, you like someone for a month and you can't hold it in any longer? its just weighing upon your soul so heavily? I don't at all understand that. This is my opinion, I'm not trying to shove it down your throat, I just don't get the point of telling someone you like them at our age. At least after just one month. I mean, what happens in a year if you don't like that person any more? If you've told someone you like them, please explain this theory to me, what can't you wait for? Especially if you are a girl. Guys are supposed to lead. oh that whole scene is so confusing and someone needs to do a documentary on it that explains it in plain and logical language. But is love ever logical? And how do you know its love and not infatuation?
I'm still looking for a definition on that. well, that is my blog for the day. I will be in Mexico, so no need to fear if I am not blogging, I will be walking to the corner store with Bob Church and getting pistacio ice cream and strawberries and cream. and it should be amazing! GOD is the focus and serving too. For once, i can get away from that drama of relationships. Its so crazy, so I wonder what God wants to do through it.
Until later-
sarah