maybe i am old fashioned

i think she posed a serious question, what do you do when you have loved someone for two years and they leave you for someone they like? In all honesty, I've sometimes thought that if I told him, things would be different. He would forget about his little infatuation with her and love me.
But then where would I be? I would be thinking its all put together, but in reality its not. Becuase I suck at making things happen. I would have taken it into my own hands and it might be good, but it would not be God's best. Here I am writing my two cents in a scrapbook that you should never settle for less than God's best. But I'm forgetting it myself. I think it is stupid to say "He is holding my heart hostage" because that is just a stupid girl saying "LOOK At how you are hurting ME!" or I could say "you don't have my heart!" but then again, that might be partly a lie because when I think about it, he somewhat has a hold on it. And he messed with it, so in a sense, my heart is in a holding pattern, leaning more towards the "you don't have my heart."

In Isaiah we see that King Uzziah had to die before Isaiah could fully focus on God. Uzziah had to be taken off of the throne of Isaiah's heart so that God could reign. And so I ask myself, is he my Uzziah? And is this the process in which he will be dethroned? I know I am going through my crisis of encounter, and I intend to come out with a dependency on God (Do i really have much choice?)

Anyway, I think a girl putting pressure on a guy to tell her he likes her is selfish and inconsiderate. Its only for one's self-edification, not for the relationship. what do you think you are going to do? Date? Well then it has to be clear that both of them are ready for that. in our situation, no body is ready to date. everyone is selfish and has their own desires. And they are my friends but they are teenagers. This is just whacked.